my destiny ~~

heyhoo hulla bala bala guys :DD now its friday since I havent write in my blog DD:
hmmm.its been a long time.its about 20 days I havent write.I'm so busy with this kind of school.so, I was in my busy time. I was crying on my bed and thinking bout that I have done.. all the mistakes, and all of the bullshit that I said.. :((
I'm fulfill with sins..
and I'm actually a sinner..
I wanna be better than now.and live without sin ;)
my life is almost sucks everyday..
without my friends, I cant do anything..
and I missed my friends.. my best friends..
as I know, I was changing to be a stupid silly girl.and I cant change that anymore..
I wanna have more friends..
have more besties..
and okay, I wanna better boyfriend too.. :D
and the most important, I wanna be a success girl! got a better collage like Indonesian University or maybe having scholarship to another country and leave all of my fam.. besides, I missed my mom and dad. missed them a lot!! x((
I thought it was just a dream, and I wish that I will waking up from this dream..
a worst dream :'(
the worst dream that I never thought..
I missed my family..
so much.
in my heart, I cant be the best person if there is nobody who wants to supporting me :(
God, help me..
just let me in..

posting AT SCHOOL :D

well well well, long time I didnt write any blog. so I was writing on my desk in the computer lab in my School. I'm so bored and nothing to do. hahaha. my english not very well actually.. :)
hmm. lets start bout something important.. hmmm. well, almost 1 or 2 months I wasnt write in my blog. I'm so busy with my homework. not homework from school but real homework from my HOME xD hahhaa. I hate that words. I was being maid for too long. its about 1 month since my maid doesnt have any information cause she doesnt tell my brother and my sister that she doesnt come back from her village. ooohhhh GOD!!! help me!!!!!! I was screaming in my heart. just pray and pray and hope that maid will back. hmm.. I think better looking for the other maid cause she didnt work very well to in my house --".
in my mind, I hope that I can get a scholarship. AMIEN AMIEN AMIEN YA ALLAH YA RABBAL 'ALAMIEN :D because always pray that I can go somewhere with my friends, not being a maid. F*UCKING MAID!!! ah biaaatttccchhh.
and so, I'd love to be patient :D more patient can make my mind get better :) hope soo...
missed you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!! cup cup muaaah muah.heuheuheu :D
see yaa later.*