my destiny ~~

heyhoo hulla bala bala guys :DD now its friday since I havent write in my blog DD:
hmmm.its been a long time.its about 20 days I havent write.I'm so busy with this kind of school.so, I was in my busy time. I was crying on my bed and thinking bout that I have done.. all the mistakes, and all of the bullshit that I said.. :((
I'm fulfill with sins..
and I'm actually a sinner..
I wanna be better than now.and live without sin ;)
my life is almost sucks everyday..
without my friends, I cant do anything..
and I missed my friends.. my best friends..
as I know, I was changing to be a stupid silly girl.and I cant change that anymore..
I wanna have more friends..
have more besties..
and okay, I wanna better boyfriend too.. :D
and the most important, I wanna be a success girl! got a better collage like Indonesian University or maybe having scholarship to another country and leave all of my fam.. besides, I missed my mom and dad. missed them a lot!! x((
I thought it was just a dream, and I wish that I will waking up from this dream..
a worst dream :'(
the worst dream that I never thought..
I missed my family..
so much.
in my heart, I cant be the best person if there is nobody who wants to supporting me :(
God, help me..
just let me in..